Officially moved to Tumblr. & Liting also made a new Tumblr blog.Copy me.First say ugly,then in the end,make one -__- Bye blogger for don't know how long because I am tired of blogger. www.rantz-all-you-want.tumblr.com

have a little faith. -was late for school today. -gotten a lousy score for physics mock spa. -feel demoralised by a lot of things. -don't feel like going for cca tmr and saturday.

School has been tiring for me. Anyway,on Saturday,I had my usual religious class.When I entered the class,I was so stunned by the amount of people in it.I was thinking to myself "Am i in the right class?".Gosh last year session had only around 8 people and now it's like 23 people ._. Anyway the teacher like to talk more English than Malay.So weird to have religious class conversed in English at times ._. I don't want to take SPA assessments.If I ever screw the real one,I probably will ignore anyone talking to me after the assessment, go home,lock myself up in the room and cry non-stop .2010=tough year academically wise < /3 Anyway I find Binomial Theorem so cool when I actually understood how to do the questions,felt relieved.Anyway,had Amaths lesson on Differentiation,like very cool but confusing ._. I regret taking Bio,should have taken POA... whatever,don't want think about how well i'll do for o's and all these.just go through it. and that Pawandip is totally dissing me and my HML. i dislike him for doing that. anyway thanks genghao for the billabong wallet present you gave me,love it,gonna use it tmr (: &today tried to take jump shots with christon,genghao,yiren.Pure FAIL.

Day 2 of 4R1 OLE 2010.

ingredients! (credits to gh)

in the bus (credits to gh)

testing the different herbs and spices.

4R1's OLE 2010 = awesome.

Day 1 of 4R1 OLE 2010 .

thanks to siying for pics above.

our slanted heart shape.

Christon,Pawandip,Me & Edenuis,Kristine,Liting & Mrs Wee

4R1-ians listening to the instructor talk about an edible fruit/leaf.

JJ,Yiren,me & Mrs Wee.

Junjie,Yiren & Me.

Us climbing the killer stairs. (I panted heavily -_-)

The Fort Gate.

Liting posing for a shot near a plant.

The piper species plants that we planted :)

Map Of Fort Canning Park

Today is so exhausting but exhilarating & FANTASTIC. Today marked the school's OLE (Outdoor Learning Experience). My class had planned to visit the Fort Caning Park over the two-day event. Boarded the hired bus and sat with Liting.Chatted alot although we felt outcast. Firstly, we had some introduction talk by the instructors there which includes Amira's mother who works there. Following that,we were allocated into separate groups for propagation.My group had to plant a certain species of a piper plant.Firstly,we had to use rakes to loosen the soil. The boys did the loosening and planting firstly while the girls did the cutting.Later on,we exchanged roles and ended up doing both in the end.Mrs Wee joined our group and she did some planting too. I took few videos and group shots too. Took the bus back after a debrief.Went for lunch at MacDonalds with 4R1-ians.Then, we hang around the outdoor amphitheater and did a lot of ridiculous stuff.Changed to school uniform and went for Mr Tan's interviewing session kind of thing with others.Used laptops and had a mass conversation on MSN with the others there while Mr Tan was being interviewed.Very hilarious sia. Went for drinks with Raudhah,Amira,Christon,Genghao after it was over. I think our class's OLE is unique compared to the others classes'.I am lethargic ): I probably should practise sleeping early habits. anyway finished reading a malay story today.the storyline was creepy and interesting.i probably should learn in greater detail on how to create such twist & turns in my malay compositions. 11/1/2010.

Today I screwed my Physics Mock SPA,totally.Got really upset although it's just a mock spa. after that,people were so engrossed in discussing about gradients and y-intercept. FML. During class, my "friend" Pawandip said this to me, "So you continuing HMT? You confirm get grade C for your o'level hmt.People ask you to drop but you don't want right?". I am like if you are my friend,can you like give me more constructive criticism instead of dissing me.Excuse me,you are giving me the impression that you don't love your mouth either.And by the way,eff off.Just what kind of friend are you at that time? So infuriating! In the morning,helped carry Emath O'level books to hmt class first.Met Raudhah and the other girls along the way.Thanks Raudhah for helping me to carry half of the load :) I think Mrs Wee is kind,but when she is unhappy with my class,she really is.haha.had Emaths test,ok o.o Had tuition after school.I am so exhausted.So much homework. Tomorrow OLE. Fort Caning Park.Fun or not remains a question for now. I want to do more good deeds.I want to be a faithful Muslim & read Malay books everyday.One of my resolutions.

Today was alright I guess.Amaths test was manageable.During recess,the guys and the girls brought brownie cupcakes for Farhana to celebrate her birthday early (: Anyway,today alot of epic things happened. After me,LT,yiren,genghao,junjie & christon had lunch, we stood outside the bubble tea shop.okay some of them were buying drinks.suddenly,a Chinese woman got drenched because water fell on her from the top of the bazaar-like tentage.super epic and a bit unlucky i must say.Anyway I've decided to continue HML.The only boy in HML class.It's very weird not to have Sumardi & Khalis making funny jokes.I better live up to the expectations of me.If not,I fight for this for nothing.Really. anyways pictures above,courtesy of Ckg Zakiah.i miss those days in the library.although i didn't get the A like i wanted to,it is still memorable.

In the morning,I went to collect my Edusave Scholarship with my parents. Received a certificate and a cheque of $400.After that, went to have breakfast.Anyway,I got a new sofa & bed in my room.The sofa can be "transformed" into a bed. Haha cool. School tmr,boring. anyway i stumbled upon a a very motivational poem.

When things go wrong, as they sometimes will, When the road your trudging seems all uphill, When the funds are low and the debts are high, And you want to smile, but you have to sigh, When care is pressing you down a bit Rest if you must, but don’t you quit.

Life is queer with its twists and its turns, As everyone of us sometimes learns, And many a failure turns about When they might have won, had they stuck it out. Don’t give up though the pace seems slow, You may succeed with another blow.

Often the struggler has given up When he might have captured the victors cup; And he learned too late when the night came down, How close he was to the golden crown.

Success is failure turned inside out The silver tint of the clouds of doubt And you never can tell how close you are, It may be near when it seems so far; So stick to the fight when your hardest hit, It’s when things seem worst that you must not quit!

i am going to read this every single day to keep me going! ;)

NPCC Promo Test, KFC FOOD.

Sorry justin,i crop it,you should know what i mean.

yiren & me ;D

the brownie cupcakes!

Today's NPCC promotion retest was great.From the looks of it,I passed (: I was able to answer most of the questions of the theory paper,apparently because it is the same paper which we taken last week -.-" Glad I studied for it. Next was campcraft.Sir Lup Peng took me and he was kind.I tied Sheepshank and Fisherman's Knot (which i learnt for almost an hour). Advanced knots; I tied Round & Two Half Hitches & Manharness. Felt so accomplished because I was able to tie and list its uses.Apparently,he gave me a chance for lashings,just tell him how to tie round lashing verbally.idk why.Next was M.O.I for drills. I find it ridiculous when i asked them 'is that the the loudest you can shout?' when i myself didn't really shout loudly. Ma'am Netti said that -.-" after that,was told to shout a command. i don't have a loud voice ): anyway saw atika in sch today.after that,went to eat KFC food near T Mart with Seokpheng,Jeryl,Justin & Bukhari. Yiren abandoned and went home,RAWR.i love eating kfc food with them lah and chit chat.so fun you know!! my weekends are so boring.I don't have the motivation drive to do Amaths further trigonometry questions,basically the whole chunk. My resolution for 2010 is to not complain,keep going all the way and be happy.But first 2 weeks spoiled my happiness.but nvm i will be happier soon.SOON.

I WANT AN OUTING FOR MY BIRTHDAY. WHERE IS IT?! UNTIL NOW DON'T HAVE.RAWR.

Busy days,busy week,in fact the most ridiculous and toughest yet.After Monday,I should stop posting emotional posts,they're demoralising ._. It's so anxious waiting for a SMS's reply.There's NPCC promotion retest on Saturday.Hope i pass this time but most importantly, I don't want to see WCI Netti! If not,she will make me feel moody all over. Although i may feel lonely during recess/lunch break because some people tend to abandon me, i am coping. i don't know if anyone even notice that. ok i'm super sensitive. BYE.

"But even if I made a vow,a promise not to miss you now& try to hide the truth inside,I'd fail cause I, I just can't live a lie". when will my days get better.i've been waiting too long.God,please give me a chance.

God,please help me make my decision.It's been tough for me.I really can't make up my mind.I'm so depressed.I really don't know what to do.I'm so demoralised. what route should i take? what if i regret? should i drop out or don't? why can't i just get my A? I really really worked hard for it. -to all the malay girls who stayed up till very late to make those cupcakes for me,thank you very very very much :) no one has ever made cakes for me.

I don't even know where to start.Firstly,my NPCC Promotion Test went failed.and there's retest this friday.i really dislike WCI Netti. Today is my 16th birthday and is the day where i collected my o's malay results.i was expecting an A but it didn't live up to it.instead i got a B3.i was v upset and disappointed.i don't even know what to say.i don't even get to share happiness with some of my friends who got their A's.me,sumardi & khalis got B's.the gals in the hml got their A's, i am very happy for them :) and i really appreciate them all and those who wished me happy bday via msn,facebook or even personally.i feel very touched today that i can just cry any moment now.gosh so lame.but when i got a B3, i didn't shed any tears at all surprisingly.when ppl came up to me and ask me not to cry,it made me like wanna cry already.aaahhh i feel so touched i dont even noe what to say! anyway i have to wait for Mr Thong to talk to me tmr.I really want to continue with my HML badly,i really need my -2 pts. i don't want to be forced to drop out,at all.fingers crossed,hoping for the best.maybe God wants me to lead a different path. i got no regrets cause' i worked hard for it.really.i scared to enter ML class tmr,their faces will go O.O argh humiliation. this is tough. i'll miss HML class and all the funny antics & jokes :DDD 'maybe failure will lead to success' thanks to the epic foursome & HML ppl! thanks to LT for present & Junwen for new zealand keychain :DD aiya i like u all lah!

i don't want to blog in detail at the moment. i am v tired,i need to get some sleep soon. i hope that me and my friends,cca squadmates can pull it through the first week of school cause' apparently it's busy for all of us.must make sure i'll have a great week ahead of me.must be positive,don't want to think negative! anyway i had a major loud laughter with neoyiren aka king of laughter during NPCC dry run open house.really.the worst in fact -.- sry for not committed to blogging.can't help it.

First day of school.Not bad but akward. Took bus 28 which was cramped.The school was flooded with new secondary one students.I cannot believe I am secondary four already.I used to remember when I first entered the school and ended up being a blur sotong,not even knowing where's the toilet.Time passed really fast.Anyway,today was funny during lessons. E.geog lesson-watched a documentary on River Nile.Pretty captivating.More on history i guess.After school,hadCCA.I feel very outcasted.I am the type who wouldn't go up to someone and say hi unless i am very close with that someone. Somehow,this week got a lot of CCA.Monday,Tuesday,Thursday,Friday,Saturday (promotion test >.<) I have mixed feelings about NPCC as of now.I know i should be cherishing it because i am left with 8 trainings before November Squad steps down and its all over.It's around April.I don't know =x and i want my hair to grow longer!! i look stupid in short hair.haiz.i am so stressed.what's more i heard there's a biology test this friday,faints no time to study.DEAD. I will prove them wrong,just wait.

Family Birthday BBQ 1/1/10-2/1/10

entangled in party spray ._.

mini campfire that my cousins made.

a game of carom takes a lot of patience and skill ._.

strawberry cake!

goodie bags.

Hello,happy new year 2010! -.- Anyway,I had family BBQ at Pasir Ris Park on Friday and Saturday in celebration of my birthday(advanced one) as well as my cousins'.I didn't know my family and relatives planned so much things for me and I really appreciate their efforts,hahaz.I just want to keep it brief by saying it's AWESOMEZXZX,Basically,I played the 'Stress' game, cycled alot using my bike and alot more luh.& my relatives totally bombarded me with the snow spray,party spray and party poppers.It was kerazehhh.I love the strawberry cake,so nice.awesome bbq! Then we went for dinner on Saturday night around Siglap area.Food galore (: Went to bed early at 12.30pm.I considered it early because I've been sleeping like 3 to 4 in the morning in the span of the holidays. On a another note,I had my haircut today.I dislike my short hair. TOMORROW SCHOOL,AAA STRESSED AGAIN.A lot of lessons-end-late days.REALLY LATE.