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Work at Suntec Convention

Gerald,Nitro,Me.

I've been very busy lately.Too caught up in work these few days.

Work is so tiring. It was undeniably boring at times,standing at a particular spot for hours,doing nothing and stoning away. It makes me think about a lot of stuff instead,which led to me being depressed at times.

At times,on the bus ride back from Bedok Interchange after work,I was so tired that I eventually came to a breaking point.I wanted to break down and just let go of everything.At times,I started to miss a few people but I didn't talk to them,cause' I was just so tired.I don't know why but I assumed I was in a terrible phase then. I was hoping for days to pass by faster.i was feeling low every second,every minute and every hour.

However,I really have nice people there! At first sight,the security officers looked menacing and threatening. However,they are actually nice,friendly & approachable people.A side that some others won't probably get to witness :) The other day,one of them gave me strawberry mints! Plus,while I was guarding the main entrance,one of them talked to me to ease my boredom away. He talked about his life actually and about how he regretted not studying well in his earlier years. I thought he's a Malay but I was surprised when he spoke Chinese. I told him about it and he questioned me "Does that make you a Bangla?" I laughed.

Besides guarding,I was tasked to actually unload the orange trolleys there and by standing at the main entrance,I get a lot of questions from customers,mostly on directions to redemption counter,cashier counters,lucky draw drop-offs etc.I even help to deliver customers' goods down to carpark lift etc.

I was praying for a better job,and then one came by. My HOD needed someone to wear the Santa Claus costume and he needed me.But honestly,white spectacles & tanned skin? Wow.

I love the dressing room backstage though. I can sit on chairs and the room smells nice.It's probably just a temporary room though.

I gave out candies & chocolates to lots of kids. I made them happy! BUT few kids cried because they were scared ._. A lot of the staff also wanted. There's this few guys who are promoting some optical vision stuff. They stalked me -.- Then this guy go do magic trick my goodness.

When i entered the toilet in my santa claus costume,there's a guy (probably one of the exhibitors working there) who came into the toilet,got startled and jerked off. It was funny!

I also made friends with an Aunty. She's caring though.Like ask me if I had my dinner etc. Then got another aunty who delivers stocks,complained about her injured toe while delivering the goods. Then she go put her leg on the supermarket trolley to show me her feet.So aunty!

While being Santa Claus,i got escorts. Yi Da, a lady,a girl who's working there too. They're friendly I guess,but I don't really know them.

Guess what? I snap the shoe straps of the Santa Claus attire. I was so embarrassed I apologized 3 times to this lady who I think might have to pay for it.Omg.

Then,there's another guy who said wtheck to me when he found out about my pay rate and the job I was undertaking. I couldn't agree more,what the heck.

Thanks GH for the car ride back home ytd! I got to see nice views of the Clarke Quay area and most importantly,finally talk with him.

And one night when I went home alone,I saw Gareth & Justin on the MRT train on the Circle Line. I confronted them though & honestly,they were bimbos and they could never for one second stop talking. I love pinching & smacking them though!

I saw Seok Pheng & Xin Rong there and they saw me too. I also saw Mr Thong & Mr Heng,but they weren't together.

Jeremy Hong's working there too but promoting digital products like cameras etc.

I made friends too with people like Joon Kiat,Nitro & Gerald who happened to be a Liverpool FC supporter! He saw my Fila 10 Black shoes & asked if I played soccer,watched soccer and then ask which club I support. I sounded scared to tell and he questioned me why. But when I got to know he likes Liverpool,I was pleased haha :) But lunch/dinner periods are the most awkward periods.

Btw I saw celebrity Vincent Ng. Apparently,I was around the backstage area blowing some red balloons to be given out to people. Then he just stood in front of me with some Wushu kids. He was in front of me like literally.And I just acted nonchalant o_o

Oh yes I gave out red balloons to customers with Yi Da. It was fun to set up the balloons and put sticks on it.

Few balloons popped._.

I'm sick of MRT train rides every morning & night. Tmr work is 10am-10pm.SIAN. I can reply smses actually but slow. AAA i dowan work tmr. Halfway there alr,might as well finish the race.

Ok that's all. Scared I'll break down again tmr :z

I want my normal life back. I want to play soccer with the usuals Christon JW Pawan again. :(

I'm just trying to keep it all in the bottle. Everything to myself.

Distance.

I wonder if she's a Liverpool fan.That'll be great if she is. One of my favourite performances from her from American Idol.Give me chills down my spine. I like her studio version too but it's more laidback ;) I love her facial expressions,like she's telling a story.

I love this one too,a must listen. Jordin Sparks has strong pipes,love her! And she's only 17 that time? Who can sing like her at 17? O: I think her voice is really a special gift from God.

This morning,I headed out to Suntec Convention for briefing for work on my own,all alone! Honestly,I was worried that I'll be late,so I left home early at 11.30am when the briefing is at 1pm.I occupied myself during the train ride by reading Torres's autobiography.I managed to reach there at approximately at 12.20pm and so I decided to enjoy a cup of Caramel Frapuccino at Starbucks there before heading up to the sixth floor. It was nice to chill out on a cup of coffee in the afternoon :) Briefing was okay. Before the briefing,there was some attendance taking and there were a lot of other people too,mostly students like me and some perhaps from Poly/JC. I was handed out a set of lanyard,apron,Bookfest card,timecard. I was under a particular guy named Sam,who is in charge of a few departments. He's an adult though. I had the chance to tour around the area,along with specific instructions along the way.The convention halls are awesomely big O: There were a lot of books on sale and there will be special appearances by artistes on certain days,like that of Sezairi & Sylvia on 19th Dec 6pm which is the time I am still working I guess. I didn't manage to interact with the new people though. I really really really really hope I make new friends :z I must expand my social life. After briefing,I went home by Circle Line and East West Line. Work starts tomorrow. Excited? No. Nervous? Yes. Ready? No. Still,it's an honour to be part of a big annual event! I had always loved to be part of something big,something fun. 12-9,here I come. :z Liverpool against Newcastle match on Sunday morning. I'll be as sleepy as heck,but whatever. I'll still watch it :D Go Liverpool! Don't care about what others say of it,like Liverfools or whatever. Dinner ; I weirdly chatted with my Mum & Aunt. I talked about a laughing lizard in the living room,freak me out.Shared few ghost stories -.-' Totally inappropriate for dinner. My finger still hurts due to a cut that I got from badminton.Blood clotting right before my eyes O.O Thrombokinase? --------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I'm waiting.

Reach out for the skies.

FAIL.

Played badminton in the morning at Tampines Sports Hall with Kristine and Shan Xuan today. Thanks for the invitation. Played until skin of finger peeled off :z Soaked in sweat.Then,slacked at MacDonalds.I was reading Torres's autobiography.Thanks Kristine for lending me :) Next,went to shop for white clothes for my work. Giordano and some shops don't really have the size that I feel comfortable in ): So decided to get it at the shop that sells big sized shirts. Later then tell. Went to accompany to Shan Xuan & Kristine to shop for Hui Yen's present. I was surprised though O: Then,went to have lunch at Food Culture. Kristine coughed for a long period of time.Scared me like abcdefg. Then,took train to City Hall and off to Peninsula Shopping Centre. Omg,got this boxer damn big. Scared me to the max. Bought 2 white collared clothes. Then,made an impromptu decision to go Esplanade :) See the nice view.Padang,Supreme court,marina bay sands. Nice sky view. Then,went to Suntec Convention. Omg I'll be sick of that place within a few days. Wanted to pass Genghao something but nvm leave it till Friday i guess? Haha. Went home,lethargic,slept for 1 hour. I think I wanna read Torres's autobiography now,and perhaps watch a bit of soccer later.Singapore Vs. Vietnam? -.-' Briefing for work tomorrow at Suntec Convention at 1pm.I hope I don't get lost tomorrow!! :z I'm on my own ): No,I'm not alone. I believe someone's watching over me.Ok bye. Update : I forgot to mention that I was fooled by a lift in Suntec Convention. There are two sides that can open. And so I faced one side,then Kristine & Shan Xuan faced the other side. Then reached 1st floor already. I was like why the door never open. Then Kristine said goodbye. Then i was like O: must turn the other side to leave the lift. So paiseh! Then she kept laughing.So mean ): Walk on with hope in my heart~ wonder when I'll get to see your face again.

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Liverpool won against Aston Villa 3-0! Goals by Ngog,Babel & Maxi secured a 4th successive win at Home! Gerard Houllier returned to Anfield as an opposition manager for the first time since he left Liverpool.Key players Torres,Gerrard & Carragher didn't play though. 8th position in league table :) I overslept for the 4am match,but I managed to catch the last 20 minutes though. I still find it amusing over the Torres-can't-play-due-to-wife-in-labour thing. Inside joke :D i think I overslept cause' I ended up turning in late. I went to bed at 10.45pm and had a lot of things on my mind and could only sleep at 2am :( Sigh. I went over to my cousins' house today. Spammed Wii again :) Played soccer too,tried to practice header.Wind was cool and breezy. Went home at 10pm. I need to run more,cause' I need to lose weight. My stomach disgusts me. I think I got sunburn on my forehead.The skin like almost peeled off or something. Too much exposure to the sun :z Briefing for work on Thursday. Work starts on Friday. Excited? No. There is nothing to look forward to after work is done. Maybe November Squad's NPCC Outing,and perhaps (HMgLiRaP)² ™ 's outing. 'O' Level Results Day? Nonono. Definitely not looking forward to it.I fear I'll cry terribly on that day,cry tears of sadness.Why must it be around my birthday period?!!!! I think I miss (HMgLiRaP)² ™ ... Hope Li Ting recovers faster. Gosh. Christmas? I don't even celebrate it... Alright. A song.

):

the silence.

I stayed at home all day today and woke up at 1.30pm. I was too lazy to wake up. As I said on Facebook,I've come to a point that I just want to be alone and shut myself out from the world completely.But I meant one day only.So,I spent the whole afternoon to myself. Watched Amazing Race. Love Brooke & Claire. Glad they're in the final leg.I started to wonder that if one day I'm gone,will I be missed or I wont? Petrified of the future :/ Hope I'm led down the right path.

I call out your name every night. If you want to comment,there's the 'comments' button down there.Er...bye.

You thought you had us fooled at your beckon call but now who's the joke and look who's laughing now.

I went for Mdm Farhana's wedding today. It's so weird now that we have to address her as Mdm Farhana.Anyway,I heard that they had an earlier wedding over at Furama Riverfront Hotel on Saturday and Sunday happened to be the groom's side though. Met Kristine,Jasper,Junjie at Bedok MRT first. I sent 14 sms to 7 people. All I can say is waste my sms. Took bus 60 to Eunos Community Club. At first,I didn't know that place until I searched it online and recognised it. LOL it's like near my primary school and one of my childhood places. Reached around 2pm and it was awkward. Lazy elaborate. Went Mac first,had ice cream although i was coughing the other night. I got a bit of running nose too last night. And my voice like was gonna turn sore cause' i sang a few songs the previous day -.-' The rest came later. Took two pictures with Ms Farhana. I meant Mdm Farhana. Ate the food there. I drank like 4 cups lol. Congrats Mdm Farhana on her marriage. Hope that she will continue to be blessed with the wonderful things in store for her! :) Gave her an angpao,my parents wanted to. Haha. Went back with some others. Haha I think I'll miss talking to Raudhah =( Luckily I got a chance to chat with her! Then took bus 60 to Bedok Int. and bus 17 to Changi General Hospital. Was feeling damn moody. Someone or rather,two people,you'll be healed.Sigh.I just don't like the feeling. Nvm,I'm keeping all my worries and problems to myself,especially all my personal stuff. Went back home with aunt by taxi. Got myself a lot of stuff today. Two nice shirts,one hoodie and one pair of jeans! :) All my size~ Now I know where to get clothes and jeans my size :) tell me where did you get the nerve to even think that you could play me wrong.Ok bye.

You open up my heart,show me all your love and walk me through~

my imperfections

i'm blogging from phone,again.lazy to use laptop now.lying down in the living room now and watching soccer matches on Mio TV. everyone's asleep already.and oh ya,the air at night now is very nice,cooling and fresh. and the place behind my house now very bright because they replaced the orange lights with white ones,but i like it.feel like going walk in the night but it's so late.

i'm weird.that's what Kristine told me. today was a simple day. after the religious class,went to marine parade library to browse through books.spent only about 45mins there.then i went to meet Geng Hao for lunch at parkway parade.my phone battery died.so locating him was tough.i had to use a stranger's phone to call LT and ask for GH's no. Thanks Liting! luckily got meet.then after lunch,i went Borders awhile with him and home afterwards.hated the rain,got kind of drenched.lucky got extra clothes.

then had a phone convo with Atika for nearly 2hrs. Haha funny. Thanks Atika for willing to talk to me. Then dk what I did.watched vampire diaries,then chatted with Kristine for like 2hrs. Thanks Kristine for willing to talk to me too. wow nice header by Rodwell of Everton but the ball hit the goalpost and deflected,sad. Chelsea leading 1-0. omg cech like injured duno wad thing but he continuing playing.okay wanna be a hermit crab now,bye.

speak to my heart.

Blogging from phone.

Blogging from phone now. At religious class now,damn bored. It's supposed to be checking of papers but none yet. I think i'm the only person in my class who came. and i got drenched in the rain just now. and i'm sleepy from the long bus rides. 12pm come faster. i thought i could learn something during class but maybe not. i'm bored. lol goodbye.

Fault lines everywhere.

An eventful day! Liverpool's match result first. 1-1 against Steaua Bucharest. They qualified into knockout stages as group winners luckily.Sent an update to both Mr Tan & Kristine lol. Played soccer in the morning at a soccer court in Simei today.At first,I was late. Then,I thought I'm the only one,but I was wrong.I called Jun Wen and he was still sleeping-.-Met Pawandip at Eastpoint Mall. Luckily,he knows one of the courts,so he directed me there. Then,Christon came. So we started playing. Penalty kicks,passing,blabla.Christon,being random,said the sky was freaking nice lol. So it went quite well,but I kick the ball damn pathetic.Aaa. Jun wen came later,then moved to another court.Got 3 other people playing.So in the end we all played. 4 against 3.At first we were in the lead 8-3 then suddenly 8-6 -.- the hot weather was like some fire. burn me like ouch. damn tired already. then played 2nd match,4 against 4. lol still tired as ever. freaking hot weather. forgot the score already. but still win. sorry but i'm a soccer noob. christon + jw + pawan = soccer pros k thanx. -.- shook hands with the other ppl afterwards. bought 100 plus isotonic drink from vending machine nearby. then sat on void deck floor and chat with them. From World cup to NPCC to people to don't know what else la. FUN ^^suddenly got a call. I got a job yay! Genghao too :) then i noticed it was like nearing 1pm already. wanted to have lunch but all pangseh and don't want ): Thanks guys for giving me the golden opportunity to play soccer with y'all :) so i went off first for prayers. was worried i'll be late,so in the end,abandoned decision to take bus and took a taxi to mosque. chiong. yes got space to pray! called Khalis. Met Khalis,Syahid,Sumardi after prayers. They were like at 2nd floor lol. Bought drinks then walk walk,then took bus 18 with Sumardi back home. chatted little stuff but at least we're still in touch :) then went out later again to have dinner with my parents and grandfather at Changi's 89.7 Supper Club :) It's not a club,it's just like a foodcourt lol. Ate like 7 dishes together. Lemme try type this. Stingray sambal fish,toufu hotplate,tom yum soup,butter prawns,kangkong vegetables,lemon chicken,rice and duno wads the name of this dish.but all so niceeee. i was like so full. can feel like my stomach bursting. like some pregnant lady who is pregnant for like 100000 months but haven't give birth. ouch. luckily the 'full' feeling subsides. quite a moment spent with family today. overall,this week has been an awesome week with family and friends.Thank God for that! Hopefully,Saturday & Sunday will be the same. Sunday - Ms Farhana's wedding :) Alright. I think I'm the only person blogging here. ok i'm getting sian to see dead blogs everywhere. i thought it was like some 'o' levels season. i must change blogskin already. as much as i am happy at times,that feeling is omnipresent. i still have that feeling but you probably don't know what i feel. I think when something good is taken away from me,I will be blessed with even greater things.I hope. I just realised some of my prayers have been answered. Like getting a job,playing soccer,patching up some things and few more. Thankful. i'm so jealous of him,i wanna be as fit as him. Will be busy on 10,11,12,13,15,16,18,19 December.I don't know how tired I'll be.

mamamamama.

Rainy day. I don't like the weather,spoiler.Make me feel so gloomy. Already planned to play soccer today but in the end,I didn't.Not because of the weather,something else,but don't wish to elaborate on it.

Anyway,today,I asked JW out because I was feeling bored.Firstly,I wanted to meet him at Eastpoint's Burger King. I saw my senior,Ridhwan there. Shortly after,we changed to having dinner at 18 Chefs. When I was approaching the shop,suddenly a sign or banner or whatever display thing fell,prolly due to strong winds-.- I thought I was like some bad omen O= I ate Cheese Baked Rice,delicious meal :) Ice lemon tea & Ice cream. $6,not bad la.

I have this sudden craving for Sushi naoooo. Anyway,he's working at Freshness Burger at Nex Mall,a newly opened mall at Serangoon.So after dinner,I accompanied him to go his work.Talked through the train rides~ The mall not bad.Hmm.

After I sent him off,I went home. Thanks JW for a great day today :) Liverpool match at 2am ltr. Reina captain now o.o pls,liverpool,own steaua bucharest. I wanna play soccer again.Gah. Someone reply sms very slow. one day,i'll be the one.

World AIDS Day.

Tiring day it has been :z

Met Geng Hao in the afternoon for the job interview. Took train together to Jurong East first.Long train ride. Long chats too :) Had lunch at an eating place nearby. Then we took bus service 183 to Popular Holdings building. The sight of the factory buildings wasn't really nice.What happened after we got off the bus was crazy.We feared that we would be late for the interview so we just ran our way to the building and made our way up to the 4th floor. It felt like some Amazing Race and I was sweating all over,but the running was great.

I had to fill up an employment form. Then,we were instructed to enter a big conference room,along with two other girls. It was pretty nerve-wrecking. The room is like those meeting rooms in dramas. It felt like some oral conversation lol. After the interview took bus 183 back to the interchange. Complained to GH the intensity of my headache.Perhaps it's due to the long train ride or the unsightly buildings.All I know is I had this sudden headache.

Took the long train ride again. Then went Bedok Interchange to have dessert ; Strawberry Ice Kachang while GH had Grass Jelly Drink. Went back by MRT and bus. Home like 6pm. Slept awhile. Thanks Genghao for the great company today,haha love ya!

Bored again and don't know how to not be bored.

Yesterday watched Man Utd vs West Ham match for Carling Cup. Like at 5am. West Ham won 4-0. Wow. Carlton Cole and Jonathan spector scored two goals each. Man Utd got dumped out of carling cup.Crashed to their heaviest defeat since 2001 and their first loss of the season lol.I just realised the cup looks like a mickey mouse head. Europa league starts tmr. duno if i shld watch,except the liv match.

Wow,it's December already.I'm more than happy that it is December already. Got like nothing to look forward to...still remember the time in december i went to idol roadshow with genghao,liting,christon. happy memories,so nostalgic,will keep them forever srsly. ♥ I'm missing those 'My Life would suck without you' days also. AAA. Don't want to think about it,otherwise i'll get emo by thinking all sorts of stuff. not good. but i think i give up liao. i'm leaving it to God. cause' i know i tried and did what i wanted to,to my best ability so i'm just moving along. if i'm realised,then i am but if not,then what else can i do right? sian sian. i'm lonely at home le. don't know what to do. i love talking can. if i don't talk,i can like 'die'.someone just talk to me can,like naoooo. booooo. maybe i should talk to myself.call me crazy but whateverrrr. i think the only thing that keeps me interested is soccer now. otherwise,i don't know what else. maybe photography! those were the 2 things i wrote as my hobbies/interests in my employment form today. i'm looking forward to nov's outing! i'm missing all november peeps )': those go-home-late-night-from-npcc-courses-at-HTA-and-random-places days were fun. and i'm trying my best to find ppl to go friday prayers tgt :( whatever,shh. my blog is dead la. no one tag,only atika tag. might as well don't blog alr. sian ttm. sian.bye.