September

I have so many things to say.I'll start off with good ones first. Elective Geography Prelim paper today.I think it's okay though. Stayed back to finish up the testimonial. Went to watch "Vampire Sucks" after the paper,with a group of friends. Went Friday Prayers first.Totally had no mood to go.I feel very draggy whenever I had to attend it nowadays.I am losing hope and faith.Sigh. Furthermore,my state of hunger didn't help at all.People who aren't fasting,can easily lament they're hungry.What about me then? Before the movie started,I was very upset. When people ask if I was okay,I had no choice but to tell the truth.No. The movie is retarded,idiotic and...idiotic. No wonder it's NC16.Super retarded.6 bucks poof. Nevertheless,I laughed crazily. Home.Sleep.Had a vision or a dream.Whatever. September holidays. Not looking forward to Hari Raya.Just want to stay at home. My parents bought the Hari Raya clothes already and the delicacies. My Mum insisted on me inviting my friends to my house. Anyone,Chinese,Malay,all are welcome~ I love strawberry puddings & drink made yesterday which consists of Seven-Up & mixed fruits. Bad stuff now. Last year,I realised I can mingle well with people.I'm happy,normal.

But this year,I changed alot. I no longer know how to socialize. I get upset,moody,jealous,frustrated easily in outings with friends. Sometimes I do get the point.But I'm no paper doll you can use and throw away as and when you like. Hate my body. Hoping for something great to happen. T.G.I.F

There can be miracles When you believe Though hope is frail Its hard to kill Who knows what miracles You can achieve When you believe Some how you will You will when you believe

In the middle of September we'd still play out in the rain Nothing to lose but everything to gain Reflecting now on how things could've been It was worth it in the end