I just wanna be me.

Sunday : Played street soccer at Bedok with the malay guys Hariz,Nazrul,Hakim,Khai,Ridwan and some others. It was rather impromptu but quite fun. Glad I got the opportunity to play but I feel sad cause' if i wanna play,i have to travel all the way to Bedok. Went home like 7pm.Reached house bus stop and went provision shop to buy a drink. The place reminded me of some stuff. Chatted with Geng Hao over some stuff. From Hong Kong to something else on MSN. Liverpool match. They lost to Tottenham 2-1. Smsed Mr Tan throughout the match. Started to feel down after the match. Maybe because of the match score,but also because of something else too. Monday : Woke up early in the morning to do job hunt with Geng Hao,Li Ting and Jun Jie. Went NTUC Fairprice,Pastamania,Hei Sushi and some others. Hei Sushi took down our names and contact numbers but I doubt they will contact us back. Lost hope in finding jobs somehow. Saw my soccer friends Hariz,Nazrul and Afiq.Said hello to them lol.Had lunch at Whitesands Mall's KFC. Thank Geng Hao for buying for me a souvenir that you got from Hong Kong. That's nice of you haha. I love Grass Jelly Soya Milk from Mr Bean.Bought one for Liting & Genghao too haha. Home. Lied down for some time and ended up sleeping. Bathe. Watch Amazing Race. Brooke & Claire are funny and hyper. Pity Vicki. Nick's really bad.If I was Vicki,I would have asked for a breakup long time ago. Guys are jerks sometimes ugh. I won't reveal spoilers to those who haven't watch. I'm bored to death now. I was sitting by the window and thinking about all sorts of things. I need someone to lean on to help with my feelings today but everyone's busy with their own stuff and thus, I couldn't really depend on anyone. Hope I'll get through these stupid feelings. I think it's time to let go but honestly, I haven't. For once, I just want to cry it all out. I want to cry like I never cried before. I really just want to cry it all out. I'm just so tired.I feel that my best days are over. Perhaps I need space.But why when I ask a little favour also cannot? I feel like quitting blogging.Like blogging lost its meaning already.