Rashid's Silent Screamo (:

Hello!Just a short post now alright because today nothing happened much?Hmph,today was basically using the com,playing Diner Dash ( I know it is a lame game for boring people like me),listened to songs,sms-ed Atika alwayzs,watching TV,eating. -__- Very boring right....had mood swings today,didn't feel good until later at night.I am going to get a thumbdrive soon!Lamez.Err today have no school because of the Tapestry III yesterday;so sorry i didn't go though.But Atika was in choir so ya she got take videoz and picturez.Haha,I saw already.She look funny when she sang the school song until I even want to laugh sia.AHAHA.She put makeup on,look abit different only.I even giggled for minutes.Hehe.Well tmr school after 3 dayz.Hmph,hope I'll be happy tomorrow.Maybe tmr going out with Atika and others (Li ting maybe?)Haha,we'll see.Cya!

Bore kills me.

I finally logged into Friendster after not logging into it for a week.First time I did that cause' I am too lazy to update or anything.And yes,I didn't bother modify anything except my shoutout which says : 'I'm lazy to update my friendster!' I lazy lah.Got my report book back today,and got first position in class AGAIN.And the class only got EIGHT PEOPLE.So little sia.But I feel like nothing cause' I'm so used to getting first in class since P1,yayayayaya.Then,today I bought Gatsby Wax,Adidas Ice-Dive perfume and Nivea deodorant?Hahas,i'm so weird.And i ate a lot today.One meal:Mee siam and nasi lemak.What the.Bleagh,today boring.I dun have any strong self-esteem sometimes.My hurt thumb still hurts.I've no idea what to do next 2 days.Bore kills me and i mean it.No entertainers.What to do,all i should say is for those who have siblings,please appreciate them.U never want to be in my state.A lonely child.i seriously want to open up my head's contents and fix whatever is wrong in there cause' i feel trapped in mind.Weirdness.Not going for tmr's Tapestry III sadly.I missing the action....i want go out.i dont want to stay at home.haiz why must my week be DOWNTURN?AAAAAAAAAAAAAAA.

rashid's silent screamo.

Random Pics

Lima and November during POP (Passing Out Parade of Lima) =(

The School Runway!Cat walk!

Cikgu Zakiah,my Sec 2 Higher Malay teacher cutting her birthday cake (6 March 2008)

The Cake! (6March2008)

Atika,Syafiq and Me! (I CHERISH THEM! XD) :D

November Squad And Mike Squad @ Pulau Ubin ATC CAMP (15 June 2008)

I'm Numb And Dead.Not Any Better.

As of now,I'm feeling rather dead.I would tend to knock my head with my hands to make myself feel alive but it comes to of no avail.I can't help feeling this feeling.And today during PE,did 2 stations for the NAPFA Test;shuttle run and sit-ups.Both stations failed.And ended up hurting my thumb.During the shuttle run,i picked up the thing and then stepped on my thumb.It was so painful,and the nail is blue-black.After the hurt,my vision seems blur and my ears are deafened.I seriously felt I could faint and collapse anytime.I felt i was in deep serious trouble though but alhamdullilah,nothing happened after drinking water-cooler.So yaaa i went Friday prayers with Dad 2day,like i feel want to sleep.Then returned back to school for my HMT class,and yea we had a test.Then,got NPCC about some CSSP Programme which i myself don't get it.My group was Sumardi,me,Natasya,Zulaiha,Farhana and Amirah.Okays we talked,chit chatted,gosipped alot.Then DISMISSED AT 4plus.So early wth.Went with Harsh and Pawandip to 7-Eleven and bought slurpee.Saw Melody from my P6 Class but she didn't like tried to look at me at all.Why?!Arghhh,then went home.Tmr religous class to get my report book back.Okay bye.I'm tired;i need more sleep....why does some things seem so different....

I'm looking back at things I've done,i never wanna play the same no more,i'll keep you in the dark

This picture is rather amusing,someone who is going to die soon is reading a novel on '10 Things To Do Before I Die'.

And now peeping tom.

What's with Atika?Haha,giving that mysterious edgy look in da eyes.SAY NO EVIL.Oh shes covering.

Hey.I wished Natalie happy birthday twice in school today :D It's her b'day today! =P Happy 14th Birthday!Lessons in school are so boring and sian but well,i have no clue actually why i said that.I think the feeling's rather numb.So we got a new art teacher named Ms Coelho and she's kind of that disciplined and fierce,rebellious teacher.Like one of a kind.Rarity.And so,I am in fact disheartened & disappointed during that lesson,and all i want to say is why say it when nobody gives a heck about you or who you are.Just so better to keep it in yourself.And then,after school,I decided not to go lunch with LT & Edenuis.Cancelled.No comments.And fortunately and thank god,I met Atika with her brother at the bus-stop opposite Ngee Ann Sec School.What a relief moment for me.So it was like a sudden,we plan to go Tampines Mall to slack or hang around.Well,her bro went home.We took 291 to Interchange.Went to Tampines National Library first,because Atika needed to clarify things for her CIP work done(shelving) or something.I checked my library card account and was in LOAN $7.80.Paid the loan with the money in my ez-link card.DONE.We browsed and search through shelves,and i found a nice interesting book entitled '10 Things To Do Before I Die' which is a novel by Daniel Ehrenhaft.Guess what?I borrowed the book and the due date for return is by 17 July.Atika was like that book might be good for you. I go -.- Now I finally know how to borrow a book myself.Okay we went to TM and settle at Mac.There was this 81-year old uncle who sat at our table,and he chatted alot.He doesn't even seem like 81 la.He told us stories like he go overseas to many many countries(kinda shocking,i mean ALOT),told us to be grateful how lucky we are to be in Singapore,and stuffs.Well yea I shared with Atika my concerns,frustrations and 'problems'.I hate school because I get frustrations from my peers everytime.I am so easily frustrated.She rather told me to be positive and not negative.Alright,so we went around for awhile only.She wanted to look for sneakers but couldn't find any cheap ones so far.Lala,went home then.Xian,tomorrow is FRiday but i hate Fridays.It's so damn tiring & frustrating.ALL the things I will have to face tmr,I don't like except for NPCC.I like NPCC! :D Okays got homeworks to do and a Malay test to study.I'm in no mood for school.I need holidays to RECOVER MY FEELINGS.I feel pressurised by all these busyness and deadness. ): Anyway,heard there's Tapestry III at Singapore Conference Hall this Sunday by our school,and i kind of badly want to go but couldn't find anyone to go with ): My this week is such a downturn week.

It keeps coming back to me.

I am blogging again partly because there's something to post liao.-.- Diao.Today is wednesday,means got assembly!Got myself ready for school and finally like finally I took bus number 28!It was packed though,but nevermind.Reached Ngee Ann and assembly programme was rather okay lah.I don't want to mention about lessons in school cause' I'm not enjoying it at all.So right after school,me,Li ting,Edenuis,Winifred plus her gang went Kopitiam to have lunch.I ate Nasi Lemak.I don't like to be criticised for my physical appearance insultance like all that bloody hell lame stuffs etc;rolling,fat,currypok and bla bla stupid.It keeps making me pissed off and really am so angered lah.Then went back to school and then waited 1 hour for Li ting to finish her CCM while I do my sci WB -.- Then go Tampines Mart to have bubble tea,Oreo Chocolate!Walk walk to bus stop,and then take 59 with LT to the bus-stop opposite my house.We walked to Tampines Mall to buy a birthday gift for someone.Hehes,but I didn't buy any,but Li ting does.I have not much money liao,then cannot buy.We went around for awhile and go Mac.We slack there XD Lala,eat sundae,french fries,do sci hw but havent finish.-_-.crap around,laugh laugh,chit chat.Then at 6pm like that go home.Reached home 6:30plus.Finally,i go home so late.

And know my heart is by your side cause' you made my soul feel glad.

All I could say is I am moody during lessons in the classroom,especially not spending much much time with my best friends which kind of feels I am left and kicked out.It is like loneliness and solitude.Where's the quaility honcus-boncus laughter that we used to make?Even the laughs we had now aren't up to that so.Where's the laughing madcows?They're just fading away slowly.It felt like this was the beginning of an ending;I am so sorry LT and Michelle ): ): Esp.Michelle because I think she might be kind of bored,and I just feel I am not in the spot whereI should be right belong to.I mean like why suddenly there are so many changes in the environment and people when it's just the second day of school?I really feel unhappy about it and my mind seems to be somewhere far off even during lessons sometimes.I just want to fall asleep in lessons especially.Bu shuang....WHY?!And those people keep making me frustrated over and over and over again,laugh cannot laugh soft is it.Like damn bloody;laugh laugh like some bloody fool maniacs,well they are.Whatever.I don't put a face-mask on and say 'Oh I am so happy'.And simply I hate the noises and screaming.And lessons are now not even interesting;especially Maths,having Mr Lee to teach us back.I want that Mr Wong again.Sigh.Why must I adapt to new environment over and over again.FRUSTRATED.Ok,cut it out.I need to pass some homework papers to Atika,so I waited for her in the morning.Then passed to her. :) She said she owed me a meal,ha.So lessons were blabla.After school,went MacDonalds to have lunch with Atika,Li Ting,Winifred and Edenuis.Atika treated me to a meal. Thanks,you're kind. (: Then,i still bought strawberry sundae.I don't want to mention a lot of other random stupid stuffs.Went home.Had haircut by my Dad.Tomorrow is a short day but yet I don't like.

School Re-opens.....

Halo guyz.Yesterday went out with my Mum and her relatives and we went E!Hub to eat,and then go to Pasir Ris Town Park and go for a walk/stroll there as well as see people fishing.My parents simply loved fishing so much,they would indulge in this recreational activity and go fishing every weekend with my cousins or relatives but I don't like so I never go.At white sands mall,i bought 2 new shirts and a webcam.Sure had a great time.Went home.Packed my stuffs and blabla.I no mood to go to school;I don't want go school la.I wan play play.Slack at home,go out.Argh.Today's school was a bit short and frustrating.So there's a new girl called Carmen from Malaysia come into our class.So actually she is to sit with Amirul but then Mr Lee asked me to exchange seats with her,so I ended up seating with Amirul and Michelle sit with Carmen.DNT Lesson was first.Was enjoying myself rather.DUSTY refers to Michelle,bcos she eveyrtime cannot tahan dust =p Then...recess....hmt.....eng.....bubble tea @tmart with harsh and liting....went home....stupid webcam give me problems,so frustrated.......still need to do homework....having the urge to play xbox.....today was just like like....i dunno how to say it. thnks anyway for reading this crappy post....and slowly drifting apart?......kicked out.....nomorelaughtersthatmuch?.....stupid?......SIGH SIGH.

The Pics Taken Throughout The Zoo Trip (:

These are the pictures we took,there's so much of them!I am not going to add captions because there's plenty of them.Besides,don't you think pictures speak a thousand words rather than me saying a caption?I like the picture with Ah Meng but I like all! Haha,happy viewing!And i took vidoes but lazy to upload here.