Watched England VS. Hungary match yesterday at 4am on Mio Channel.At first,England was losing but Gerrard saved the day by scoring two consecutive goals for England.Nice goals~ Night prayer yesterday was okay but tiring. Demoralising day.Demoralised over so many things ; EL Oral,personal stuff blabla. What's the point of studying when all I do is keep screwing up and screwing up? Waste my bloody efforts.I screwed up so many things. Sometimes I wish I graduate faster.Sometimes I don't want to. I can't believe I broke down over studies and relationships just now.Furthermore,my lips and face looked pale when I reached home. I'm so tired.Exhausted.Running low on self-esteem.

Why I care so much when nothing will come out of it? tell me why am i born like this. i never asked for this.i don't want to be like this.can't my life just turn around completely?! i don't wanna be.i don't want.but i can't do anything about it.