Where the fields are green,to see you once again.

Today was a weird day,for most of it. Met Geng Hao,Yi Ren,Yi Ting at Tanjong Pagar MRT for a job interview. Sorry guys for being almost half an hour late. I felt awkward to be in some weird building.It felt like I was barging into some private property. Anyway,I filled up the form and I might be in the Security Dept with regards to the event Bookfest 2010 by Popular which will be held at Suntec Convention 601-603. Geng Hao and Yi Ren filled up theirs too but maybe Yi Ren might be quitting the job,I'm not sure.But they filled up in other departments like packing and shelving books i think.But the working hours are long,like 12-9 or 10-10 and the event is 10th-19th Dec. But I'm working for 8 days only. That is,if my interview tml is successful. Anyway,I also did left my contact for 'Each A Cup' and they did contacted me asking where I plan to go next and I said JC. And there's no reply afterwards. Hurhur.

But at least I won't have to make so many decisions. Don't know if I'll enjoy the job but I'll give it a shot. I'll work hard if I get it. The rules are strict too. No use of phone at work,otherwise no bonus. Went to have lunch with Geng Hao at Century Sq's Food Culture. Haha enjoyed my time with him today :) Ate this black pepper chicken with rice like some hotplate. nice :) bought bubble tea. haha kinda enjoyed chatting with him on the bus too,sent him off to 201. then i went home. thanks genghao :)

watched barcelona and real madrid match highlights online. was supposed to watch it online at 4am today but i lazy wake up -.- 5 fantastic goals,epic match! :) Goal of the year! But Ramos got a red card. And what's with the shoving by Ronaldo? Gosh. Then got some fight at the end hurhur -.-

With regards to ytd's Liv match,Liv got 5 yellow cards -.- Konchesky,Meireles,Johnson,Skrtel,Carragher.And Carragher dislocated his shoulder,which led him to having operation,means he'll not be playing for weeks.Aaaa.Dead. Whatever,me and my craze for soccer suddenly. went to walk alone near my neighbourhood area.went 7 eleven at 201 to buy 2 chicken pau. the sky was like split into half ; half dark & half bright. weird. I feel like watching dramas! But don't know what dramas to watch. Too lazy to go and search. Aren't I suppose to exercise these 2 mnths? I'm suppose to lose weight. Aren't I suppose to learn piano/guitar? Still not yet. Aren't I suppose to go overseas or something? Oh ya,Mum Xray on 20th and operation tentative. sigh. i'm hoping for a hope to hope for more hope... At the end of a storm,there's a golden sky.

I just wanna be me.

Sunday : Played street soccer at Bedok with the malay guys Hariz,Nazrul,Hakim,Khai,Ridwan and some others. It was rather impromptu but quite fun. Glad I got the opportunity to play but I feel sad cause' if i wanna play,i have to travel all the way to Bedok. Went home like 7pm.Reached house bus stop and went provision shop to buy a drink. The place reminded me of some stuff. Chatted with Geng Hao over some stuff. From Hong Kong to something else on MSN. Liverpool match. They lost to Tottenham 2-1. Smsed Mr Tan throughout the match. Started to feel down after the match. Maybe because of the match score,but also because of something else too. Monday : Woke up early in the morning to do job hunt with Geng Hao,Li Ting and Jun Jie. Went NTUC Fairprice,Pastamania,Hei Sushi and some others. Hei Sushi took down our names and contact numbers but I doubt they will contact us back. Lost hope in finding jobs somehow. Saw my soccer friends Hariz,Nazrul and Afiq.Said hello to them lol.Had lunch at Whitesands Mall's KFC. Thank Geng Hao for buying for me a souvenir that you got from Hong Kong. That's nice of you haha. I love Grass Jelly Soya Milk from Mr Bean.Bought one for Liting & Genghao too haha. Home. Lied down for some time and ended up sleeping. Bathe. Watch Amazing Race. Brooke & Claire are funny and hyper. Pity Vicki. Nick's really bad.If I was Vicki,I would have asked for a breakup long time ago. Guys are jerks sometimes ugh. I won't reveal spoilers to those who haven't watch. I'm bored to death now. I was sitting by the window and thinking about all sorts of things. I need someone to lean on to help with my feelings today but everyone's busy with their own stuff and thus, I couldn't really depend on anyone. Hope I'll get through these stupid feelings. I think it's time to let go but honestly, I haven't. For once, I just want to cry it all out. I want to cry like I never cried before. I really just want to cry it all out. I'm just so tired.I feel that my best days are over. Perhaps I need space.But why when I ask a little favour also cannot? I feel like quitting blogging.Like blogging lost its meaning already.

A Note To God.

I can't even begin to say how eventful my week has been. In fact,these 2 weeks have been really an eventful one. I was going out everyday :) Though it's been tiring,I'm enjoying it! In fact,I'm loving my life for a moment. Still. Anyway,I'll try to keep this brief. Monday,Tuesday was 4R1 10' chalet :) At Sentosa. The chalet didn't look awesome. The huts were very small and cramped. But I actually wanted to stay over cause' some wanted to,but I didn't bring some stuff,so can't lol. Monday; roamed around the beach area,took lots of photos,around 97.Ate dessert,had long walks,chatted a lot. Took a cramped tram on the way back home with Jasper,Li Ting,Kristine. A really cramped tram. It was like some rampage or something. Jasper was having a sugar rush;hyper active -.- The monorail was worse,felt very very bored! Had dinner with them at Vivo City's Banquet. Lemon chicken rice & Chrysanthemum Tea I think :) Saw my P2 religious class teacher but she didn't recognise me of course. 6 years wad. Watched Amazing Race. Phew,Brooke & Claire not out. Go them! (Y) Wish Chad & Stephanie a happy marriage though. Tuesday was perhaps more eventful. Met Jasper,Kristine,Li Ting at Tampines MRT then headed off to meet the rest of the class at Universal Studios. Did nothing much except entering a store and place full of candies that reminded me of Katy Perry's California Gurls music video except for the squeezing milk part though -.- First when reached the beach,played captain ball. Liting,Junhao on my side while Jasper,Kristine,Christon on the other side. It was epic -.- A lot of running and I'm tired already.Weak stamina. Played a bit of soccer,but fake one. Kick ball only -.- Played another captain ball game with the class. I think my team won -.- But who cares about the score,it was fun but running on artificial sand was painful.The worst thing is,I sprained and hurt my toe like it bend totally.Ouch. The weather was hot too. Played a bit of Frisbee with Yi Ren. Hang out at the beach with Kristine,Yiren,Christon. Got some ang mohs wanted to borrow Jasper's volleyball -.- Jasper looked angry after that. Barbecue time. Starting the fire took a long time for them. Ate some food. Bla bla. Mr Tan came. His son is cute. Gave Geng Hao a note/card. Hope he likes it! :) Had a chatting session with Janet,Li ting & Genghao in the small hut. Surprisingly, the aircon was cold. Gonna miss 4R1 ians ): Went home in the end. There was fireworks ! Awesome mosome. *Katy perry's fireworks video* MRT train ride back home was tiring. Wednesday : Met in the morning with Li ting,Jasper,Kristine. Roamed around shops to look for Christon's present. Decided on one thing but it was tough deciding what to buy really.Went for lunch at Century Sq with Raudhah,Amira,Sheau Shiun,Christon and the 3 of them. Got a very long silent awkward moment. Ended up going Toys R Us. Toys are lame. Watched Harry Potter 7 Part 1. It's a great catch. Love the plot and the tale about the deathly hallows. Part 2 next,July -.- I think I'm going to leak some stuff. I acted like I was going home but I made Christon go to the bus interchange and told him that I'll wait for him to go off first then I go. but actually I was supposed to meet Kristine,LT,jasper to buy his bday present. LOL. apparently,when i reached there,the shirt size was out of stock and it meant me and kristine had to travel all the way to Orchard's Paragon the next day to get that shirt from another retail outlet. Went to collect my tailor made pants afterwards. Thursday : Met Kristine early in the morning. I was late again,sorry. Took a taxi to Paragon mall. Thanks Kris for paying the taxi fare. She can still say it's not that expensive lol. Went Adidas shop and finally bought the shirt. Went back by MRT to Tampines Mall to print photo and then to Popular to buy card and wrapping paper. Home. Went out again with Mum later on to get a haircut at Century Sq. Back home. Got ready and all for Prom. Mum helped me with putting on gel. My hair looks like some elvis presley fail hair and the shoes make me feel taller.Met Christon and YR in the taxi and later on,Kristine. The taxi drive was a bit -.- I felt that I had to suffer sitting in the front seat. Shouldn't have sat at the front seat. Like I got choice anyway. Prom was great. Couldn't recognise some people at first. Had a 8 course dinner. Christon kept laughing for some time cause' of some sliding tackle stuff on stage. Reminded me of the time when he laughed non-stop in Tampines Library for a long time. Thanks Jasper and his parents for sending us to the nearest MRT station! Took MRT train at 12am plus with Junjie,Yr,Ch. First time. Wished CH a happy birthday at 12am on the dot. Camera got something wrong now. ): walked back home. super quiet and super deserted. reached home like almost 1am. Friday : planned an outing for christon. kite flying at marina barrage. walked up early to write some stuff for the card. took a very long time to do it. went friday prayers. got that emo emo feeling as usual. met liting,kristine,junjie,christon later on. this time didn't get lost :) was feeling worried cause' someone was looking very sian and bored. anyway,liting complained about something. could really feel how wasteful that was :z jj and kristine's kite spoiled-.- christon's one doesn't have the rod. the clouds look scary though. but at least my kite can fly or something. didn't expect many kites to be flown there. took a long time to unravel my RED thread.and they said they ' saved' my Mum's whole bundle of thread by cutting?! Wow *clap clap* -.- MRT ride was sian and boring. Went to T1 with Kristine. I bought a Boston-Chocolate flavoured cake for Christon,a small one. Went to have dinner with them at Kopitiam. I ate dessert. Ice jelly cocktail! went with JJ and LT to do job hunt.interesting.Home. Was supposed to study Arabic exam but ended up using laptop and watched Survivor. Happy Birthday Christon! Sorry for late post -.- Hope you like the cake,card and shirt! Saturday: I don't really like my Saturdays now. Arabic exam was epic fail. I think I fail it.Totally skip qns on an Arabic comprehension passage. -.- But at least got RED mark on my report book :) zz. i found out that a guy in my religious class likes Liverpool too! I wanna talk to him too but it seems like he see me i see him but we're total strangers. so sad ): went out with my relatives to Joo Chiat NTUC to buy some stuff.then went simei's eastpoint to have lunch at banquet. free meal,thanks :) was feeling tired,sleepy = boredom. went my relatives' house. played Wii! Pro Evolution soccer,mario kart,need for speed nitro,wii sports and a lot more. Then played soccer with them. Fun! Love kicking balls :) ate a black pepper roasted chicken with them. big one -.- had prayer session. a long one with them. fruitful,learnt some stuff from my uncle. it's so hard for me. i feel pressurized and restricted though. wanted to ask some stuff and let out some of my feelings and thoughts about certain things but decided it's better i keep it to myself. had dinner.then watched Arsenal vs. Aston Villa match first half. Arsenal plays well. first half was 2-0 i think. went back home at 10pm. reached home,no one.as usual,alone at home.dark. skipped vampire diaries for soccer matches. ManUtd won Blackburn 7-1. Exciting match! Berbatov scored 5 goals and Nani and Park J.sung scored one each. Felt a bit sad for Blackburn. If it was Liverpool,it would be worse. Congrats to Berbatov for being in the record books or something. Read it online. Liverpool's match later on at 12am against Tottenham Hotspur. Nervous.Scared.Won't have anyone to talk to during Liverpool's match since Kristine left for Hong Kong already.Don't dare to message Christon during matches -.- Okay. so it's Sunday. Prolly a day for myself to have some space and do my own stuff. But I don't mind going out of course. Nth else. Job hunt tomorrow. Nervous and scared if got walk-in interviews :z Goodbye :) Still,I can't run away from the truth.

We share the same bright sun,the same round moon,why don’t we share the same love?

Been real busy. Hanged out with my relatives at Jurong Bird Park today. Have to thank my Uncle for paying the admission fee which was $50 I think? Yes,really. Thanks. I had a ball of fun time with them. Woke up real early on a Sunday,but it was worthwhile. Took many many pictures! Stupid,one of my cousins scared the wits out of me in that i-can't-see-anything-in-a-dark-room-filled-with-weird-owls-going-hoot-hoot room. Honestly,it was an unglam & paiseh moment -.- Shall not reveal hehe. Watched a bird show too. Got the opportunity to feed the birds with some weird liquid. I think the birds will be damn fat and bored of the 'food'. Like me. But I remembered I was afraid of feeding the birds last time. So yay =D Afterwards,went to eat with them at a foodcourt called 'Aiman's Cafe' near some Jurong East Area. Great food! Awesome mosome time with my lovely cousins! Anyway I woke up late for Liverpool and West Ham match by half an hour. They won 3-0! I was saying to my Dad "Now that they scored one goal,wouldn't it be better if they had 3-0" and poof,they scored 3 goals all in first half. Second half was goalless. Well done Liverpool! Back in 9th position. I hope they don't fall. Keep rising! Everyone's been watching dramas,like GH is in love with Cruel Temptation. And Janet prolly too glued to her dramas until she didn't reply my msg. I'm supposed to apply for a job. JANET REPLY. Class chalet tomorrow. Not excited for it. -.- Some plans were made and I totally don't know anything about it and when someone told me, I go O.O and thought it was very awkward.Not gonna think anything fishy about it,but yeah. complaints at home.and it's adults' affair. wah cannot stand it. shh. One piece of advice : Don't wait for something bad to happen and you regret because of YOUR OWN deliberate actions. One that I learnt from my own experience.

We share the same bright sun,the same round moon,why don’t we share the same love?

Nice.

Belief & Hope.

I've been out for the entire week so far and I'm dead beat. Friday : Went to meet Geng Hao in the morning. Then went off for Friday Prayers. I find that containing my tears during the prayers was torturous.I had to go to toilet after it -.- Maybe it's because of the prayer,maybe it's because of the very nice people I bumped into. I don't know,it came naturally. Then,went to meet Christon,Jasper,Yi Ren at Tampines Mall's Isetan. There were sales going on. I managed to get myself a pair of black shoes & a tie. The black shoes are similar to Christon & Yi Ren,no,it's same. But what could be worse than girls wearing same dress on Prom Night? Wanted to get tailor made pants at 201,but the shop owner wasn't there. So went home. Then,went out later again in the night to go to the shop with my Mum. Tailor made pants are expensive. I need to be thinner. Spent my night away studying for religious class exam.Headache.

Saturday : Woke up earlier than usual,at 8.30am. Sat for religious class exam. So so lol. I find reading Arabic not easy at all. Struggled like abcdefg. After class,came a total downpour and dark clouds were lurking ominously.Hate it badly. Had a sudden nostalgic feeling of going to Parkway,miss that place. I like the ambience there. Went to stay over at cousin's place. Had fun. Played soccer,PSP,prayed together,had great chats with my Grandfather,relatives,watched 'Where got ghost' on Mio TV,watched some movie.Ate home made Nasi Lemak. Reached home like 10.30 pm. I'm really tired. Been out for the entire week so far. And next week,I'm like fully booked. Exhausting but I'm enjoying it.I feel weird having to adjust to a 'no studying' life though,and it has only been less than a week since o'levels ended. Anyway,I want to thank Geng Hao for helping me with something. I am thankful you were there to help me,thanks. I'll never forget it :) I'm not a fool. I'm not that gullible. I can think. I have instincts.

Hold my hand my friend,we can save the good spirit of me and you,for another chance.

I've been going out the past few days,ohmygosh. Not to mention,there'll be more coming ahead. I went out on another shopping trip with Kristine & Li Ting today at T1,Tampines Mall & Century Square in search of their Prom shoes. It was quite enjoyable I guess. Li Ting took a rather long time to purchase her pair of shoes. Kristine bought a pair of shoes and a clutch purse that was pretty nice. Guess it was fruitful for them. As for me,I didn't buy anything,but it turns out I'm going Prom Night,thankfully.However,the shopping costs just made me go mad. Had a drink over at Century Square's Coffee Bean.I love cafes mainly because they set you in a sedative mood and simply provide a space for you to chill out with a cup of mocha/coffee or anything. I started pouring in sugar syrup and endless sugar into my cup of Cappuccino. Then,I went to add chocolate powder and cinnamon powder into it.The whole thing was funny -.- Played PSP FIFA 10 with Kristine. Super fail hahah. It turned out Jasper was in CS too but it was never fated for us to bump into each other haha. Slacked,slacked. Wow,life after O'Levels. But is it great? I still don't know. I don't know if I should download FIFA 11,feeling so lazy to download large-sized files onto my laptop.Aiya,delete the old and upload the new. O.O Oh yesterday,I went to my cousin's house.It was fun :) Spammed xbox 360 for 4-5 hours.Played Call of Duty,Star Wars Force Unleashed,Left 4 Dead,Bakugan and don't know what else. Then played with my two little cousins.they just bring smiles to my face. I remembered during my childhood days,I always stayed over at their house. I still feel damn empty as ever )): It's so not me! I wish I can be happy like I was in 2009. It's probably one of the best years I had,well I guess.Now everything seems like in a mess from top to bottom.My social life,my relationships,my family,my happiness. Like one by one,snatched away like some kidnapper. Woa,I got kidnapped.But it means all those will be returned right? Or will it all get snatched and killed? Even so,it means I need to pay.Hmm,if it was in context of life,what do I pay? Love? Maybe. I really want to patch up things and be a better person,but in the process,I find myself defeated. Then,I always get so worked up about how others think and feel of me,and I start to throw assumptions and expect so much from them.In the end,I made them angry with me and it loosens the strings of our relationship.Afterwards,I regret doing it and cried over spilt milk. Then I ask for forgiveness and repeat the same mistake. What's wrong with me? I hate myself for fitting hypocrisy and stereotyping in my daily life. Is this what I learnt from religious class every Saturday? No.Then,Rashid,why did you do it? I learnt my lesson. I want to befriend with people whom I used to be friends with closely,but it seems too little too late to patch up things. It's like a shattered glass that can never be formed up back. Rashid,you have broken the trust,understanding and bonds that you shared with people in your life. Sometimes when I look myself in the mirror,I don't even know who I am. I felt different. I'm going back to where I belong. I must try not to be emo.I always believe being happy brightens up everyone and lets you boost your inner confidence and is the key to good things. I must change myself. I want people to appreciate me and if I want that,I have to appreciate others.

I've never ever shed so much tears. I'm thinking too much. Why must I cry? It's not smart to cry over people. Rashid,they got their own cell group friends. Just move on. Maybe one day,just one day,you will find what you've always been looking for.A group of Malays whom you too can depend on. So just press on,try to accept changes and be happy. Be optimistic. Be happy. Live your life to the fullest,cause' you're only given one life. Cherish it. I'm going to regret this.

Oxymoron

O'Levels are Over,with the big fat O. Ok,since yesterday. Anyway,I posted yesterday's entry on Livejournal. I suddenly felt like posting there,so yeah. Today was basically a shopping day with the clique. Headed down to Bugis,Marina Square and Suntec City. Firstly,waking up early in the morning was tiring. Secondly,the long walk,but hopefully it helps to make me lose weight. Thirdly,the crowded trains. I don't fancy crowded places,but I think I've grown an immunity to it,especially every Friday. Nevertheless,I enjoy shopping with the guys and girls. The pretty dresses really cost a bomb while the male vests/blazers were too expensive. Mentioned to Kristine that I had a craving for chicken rice early in the morning a couple of times. Glad I got that craving off. Then I said I craved for coffee and then came Starbucks. Had a cup of Dark Cherry Mocha at Starbucks. It was awesome. Took a couple of pictures as well. There was a total downpour on the MRT ride back. A real downpour. Don't even talk about Prom to me. It's unfair I don't even have the money to go. I mean I have,but my Dad refuse. And now he might let me go. I'm confused. The answer is just maybe maybe maybe. So frustrating. This sucks. I wasn't really in the best of moods during yesterday's cycling outing. I just don't like hanging out in big groups cause' I feel that there's a tendency for one to feel outcast and neglected,but nevermind. When I reached home,I was just so sad and gloomy.All I could afford to do was to stare at the ceiling for half an hour. I guess,I shouldn't put up hopes if I want to talk to someone. Maybe I should just give up,avoid and just give up. No point. If I'm really cared,I wouldn't have,but nvm, it's okay :)) On another note, I hate my hair now.It's uneven. And lastly,Happy Hari Raya Haji to all Muslims :)

Ask yourself;reflect on yourself.

Heyz. Just got back home from class.Had a religious exam,hmm didn't really study for it.So.no.comments.Went lunch with relatives at Simei's Banquet.Thanks Aunty for treating me to that awesomely topsy piping hot soup + fish + rice & dark chocolate drink. Good food. :) Saw a Sec 4 guy and a Sec 3 guy. Nothing much to do,except studying Biology,watching television,photo shopping,slacking,sleep,Tumblring. Talking about Tumblr,I have lost touch with it,but I recently got to log in yesterday and did some tumblr-ing.It's really awesome. Kristine,you have to check my Tumblr out,there's a lot of cool Liverpool stuff there :) I'll probably going to Tumblr later. I don't know why,but I'm listening to this sad song and I'm crying.Talking about crying,cried last night.I hate them. Sometimes I just want to quit myself from Facebook. I hate having to suck up everything. Don't make promises to me if you can't fulfill them,cause' you will only be disappointing me.I can no longer stand it.My sadness is already at its zenith.If you don't want to talk to me,so be it. I no longer want to talk to him,them. I'm going to sleep now. Goodbye.

Forever united here,somehow.

Yo. Today has been quite a good day for me,I guess.Basically,there was a Chemistry MCQ paper that I had to sit for.Afterwards,I headed out to Change Airport with the rest of my friends to have a mini break,considering we have one Biology MCQ paper left on Monday :) Bus ride was funny.We took quite a long time to decide where to have breakfast,from foodcourt to Popeyes and finally to Yakun Kaya toast,but I ate Nasi Lemak though.I thought the tables at Yakun Kaya toast were awesomely cute,especially with the "border" that separates the guys and the girls.It's okay if you don't understand what I'm talking about,hah.The eggyolks looked slimy. Afterwards,we went to Terminal 3.We managed to catch a glimpse of the airplanes.I waould love to go other countries besides Malaysia,Thailand & Indonesia. Man,it's my dream~ I wish I had the finances but guess I have to put aside that dream of mine.False hopes. Then,basically,we roamed around,took sky trains. There were a lot of Malays O.O But I knew the reason why.They were going pilgrimage and so their families are sending them off. Then,I went for Friday Prayers.No comments.Went home,slacked awhile,then went off to play soccer. O.O Okay pardon me if I sound really pissed at this part here. You know what. I made a wasted trip really.Plus,I waited for nearly an hour for him.But he didn't show up nor reply my messages.I really felt moody at that time. In the end,I just went back home. But he has his reasons,but is it trustworthy? Or does this actually mean something else? That my presence is not wanted? Please,I was really hoping to play soccer,but no. Saw a primary school friend on the bus,but don't know if he recognises me,so I just...didn't say hi. I was thinking all sorts of things on the bus ride.I just felt so terrible I straightaway went to sleep once I reached home.How do I say? it's like emo+ angry+ sad+bored+helpless+lost. Perfect combo,bingo. Why is it that when I feel like I wanna do something new,I always get my hopes crushed? It's not like I didn't seize the opportunity.Feeling so frustrated but more of sad. I am hating more now.My tolerance level has already reached its maximum point. They have their own group of friends. I'm no longer needed.Rashid or no Rashid,it doesn't make a big difference.I feel like I'm wearing a plastic mask on my face honestly,having to absorb all the "Hey I like you" or 'Hey I appreciate u",which obviously doesn't apply to me. you're still a part of my life...

Unexpected win

It's Monday and thought I will get Monday Blues,but not really. It's officially less than 6 days before my O' Levels come to an end. Excited? YES,VERY EXCITED. Before I digress,let me say this. LIVERPOOL WON CHELSEA! 2-0 Torres is back from the land of the dead or something. Unexpected win and brace from him. At first,I wasn't thinking of watching since I have a SS exam later on in the morning. But I decided to watch it anyway since I was still revising. I didn't bear to watch until I found out Liv was leading by a goal :) Didn't regret watching the first half.Went back to sleep after that. I spent my afternoon like a sloth. I slept for almost 2 hours. I had a really awful nightmare. I dreamt that all my close friends turned their backs on me. It was very awful I don't even know what to feel at that time. It felt like a dream but at the same time,a reality. Luckily I forced myself to wake up from the dream. Omg seriously. Somehow that dream is slowly becoming a reality,after what occurred in the afternoon. I thought by asking politely,you will get a polite answer.But no,I was wrong. Instead,I was ignored and my message wasn't even replied. FYI,I don't have unlimited phone plan. Whatever,moving along. Basically,I feel slack. & HML exam is on Wednesday. But I did memorise 100 proverbs already,20 more to go ): And I still need to go through papers,and memorise fanciful phrases. Googa. I don't know if I can do it. It doesn't mean I did it for Prelim that I can do it for O's. I must try my best,really.Though talk is cheap. I came up with a list of things to do after O's

• PLAY MORE SOCCER!!
• RUN MORE,LOSE 20 KG!!
• Pick up a music instrument (as in,learn,not just touch & pick up,ha.ha. oink zz)
• Go out on more outings!

To Be Continued... I'm still me. No matter how different I may be,be it the things I do and all,I'll still be the me you know me since last year. And I want you to know that. Goodbye! HML Marathon tmr :( Letakkanlah panji ketabahan di puncak hatimu agar kamu daya melalui liku-liku kehidupan yang penuh onak dan duri. Love Katy Perry's Fireworks,uplifting song :)

She has such a beautiful voice. Sad song.

Doesn't matter if you're black or white.

Guess what? I'm a bit bored,so gonna do some blogging now. Can't wait for O'Levels to end.I wonder what I will be doing during the holidays,though I think my life will change a bit from then on. Nvm,not going to talk about it. Sometimes hurtful things are better off kept in the lurch,rather than going round and dwelling on it right? Heh. Alright,I really don't know what else to blog about. Just wanna say my Saturday would be probably be at home. Which obviously made me feel depressed times ten. So depressed that i went out on Friday night to have a night walk alone. Couldn't stand it,needed to clear my mind and breathe in some fresh air in the Earth. Well,it's a great walk,a lonely walk in the night.Love the breeze though. How I wish I live near the park,that would be even better. Luckily I got my TV,laptop to accompany me lest I go insane. I guess I'm used to being lonely at home and perhaps that's the way it's meant to be,so just accept it lor. No brother or sister, no choice la. I realised whenever my aunt's at home,I wouldn't talk to my Mum much. But if not,I will talk to my Mum more. I feel like crap whenever I'm in that plight. It really sucks. And I feel like I shouldn't be worrying her even more,so I just keep silent. Whenever I feel lonely,I just turn to Allah,cause' I feel like there's at light at the end of the tunnel. I think I'm just talking to myself here. Before I make more nonsense here,I better leave. Goodbye. Anyway,just a quote;

Go confidently in the direction of your dreams. Live the life you have imagined.